we were.

Remember the days when i would run to you? run to you?
well now Im just running in place, running somwhow further away from you.
everyday i feel my heart break from you...once upon a time it was dead and it would race for only you.
i keep wondering what i did wrong? but i go over it again and i can find none on my fault.
I loved you,you knew it. i still do, it makes no difference.
thats all we are, we were best friends.
Im just running in place, maybe youll come around if i stay? maybe i can feel that again when the smile smothers your face.
i see it in pictures but its never the same, its not mine.
id give up anything, but for all the months ive been running in place ive been getting somewhere.
youre happy and Im bitter about it.
you miss me as much as i miss you, i dont believe you.
its killing me, youd be dead,
kept in the basement with worries i havent fed.
i want to see you swallow it whole.
we dont talk anymore and your lies get you by, keep me holding on, hold me tonight?
i miss your warmth wrapped around me tight, nowhere for holes to chill me, lies.
They get to me now in this cold apartment; i feel them creeping open every night, and ive got a new one ive named after you, its draft never subsides, its been going strong for 9 months, 9.
i miss laying in bed picking a part eachothers chest till we knew them inside out, nothings left.
ive got secrets now you wouldnt want to know.
you dont see me, no you dont see me at all.
my heart...
at night i hold the rest, clenching hard on to brusied ribs, i hold whats left, hold it inside, i cannot say its something i regret.
youre not really mine anymore and i know it, which means you never really were, i know it.
i think about all the nights you had me convienced you were.
i was all yours.
now i just think, and i think it really hurts to think.
Im not a princess, this isnt a fairytale.
Im just are girl and youre just to busy working 15 to 20 hours a week to see.
what if our love isnt enough,
its not undying and ever lasting.
Ive needed you here.
ive been running in place and you just cant keep up...
you didnt even try.
you never left but youre never around.
are you going to be busy for the rest of your life?
ive cried from you more times then fingers and toes of everyone im around could count.
ive died inside waiting for you.
im not living, im just walking around.
i love you.