I have been slacking at writing in here, and it not because I have been too busy, just rather absent minded, I have been writing still just in ink. I have been lost in my own thoughts a lot lately, thinking about the past.Kaela recently brought up a girl from my past, she likes to call her my vagina girl, but shes always been so much more then that to me, I found her recently and I have been talking to her again, it is sort of predictable how all those old feelings come right back to the surface, I am not falling for her again, but I am falling into the past I wish I were there with her again. It took me so long to even want to be in a relationship with anyone else, till recently , and now I just feel all mixed up.
she is one of those people you meet that instantly change your life, they leave a big impression on you, and that just leaves an even bigger gap when they leave. I have never been more captivated by anyone.
They say you love everyone differently which is how you are able to love and be in love more then once with more then one person, I wish I could love that exact way again.
and a part of me wishes it could still be her but honestly our presents have come so far from our past that its almost impossible.
In a perfect world we would still be together.
but in this world I am used to being alone.
I will never forget, she was one of the best feelings I have ever had, and kaela that has nothing to do with girl sexing:p
I wish I could explain but I feel like I just did a really bad job.
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