Hmm, what can I bitch about today, "????" Well nothing has really changed or happened for that matter. Since the lover has went home I am sleeping normally again, the only down side seems to be that the days are that much longer and suck that much more. I mean its nice not to be up all night when no one else is up either to talk to, but its sucks being up real early when everyone who has a life is still sleeping from the night before, and during the day well people that are not me are out having lives I guess so no one has time to even say hi anymore I guess. Right now its about 230pm. I've been up since 6am and I have done not a damn thing. Talked to not a damn person either.I kind of feel like giving up, well not give up but "trying?" I think that is the word I want.
Its only me, its always me, and there is not really anyone else.
Sometimes I feel like nobody gives a fuck, and that hurts, but at the same time its like I cant be all on everyone like "my life sucks" blahhhhh. so I just...idk I'm dealing with it. I'm not happy with it but knowing there is tomorrow is the only thing that keeps me going through today. I have things to look forward to, and I know it wont always be like this but I keep asking myself if I really want to be around those people when its convienient for them again when they cant seem to give me the time of day right now?
I feel like I could dissapear really easily right now and no one would notice.
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