I have neglected you. I have been posting else wheres and not really at all for this past week, jesse went home about 22 hours ago and I miss her crazy amounts, I walk around feeling like something is missing.
its funny how sometimes you dont realize that you need or are lacking something until it has to go back to michigan for there own life :/
These last few weeks havent been great and that isnt to say i didnt have an awesome time whith jesse, she is probably why I didnt end myself by now.
Ive been job hunting and friend probleming and getting marooner everyday.
I havent found my footing here yet, and Im not sure if this is just a stepping stone.
I've spent 5 months prepairing to come here and going home would mean a long while before everything is potentially alright. and staying here I need a job baaaaaad and to meet someone I actually have a connection with..
Right now all I want is to work, live on my own, see jesse, see kaela and go back to college and I cant bottle that.
Im trying really hard to get a job here though cause if and when I do go back to MI i want it to be because I chose too.
I wish I knew how to make myself happier lately Ive just been getting these random single tears along with a lump in my throat at odd moments.
no wonder my stomach is a bottomless pit. I am never full of hungry.
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