Sexy Job Holder/Slacker.

Well Since I havent written in here since monday I guess I can say what I've been doing, ha nothing really. I just suck.

I got the job. I start next week, I think. I dont know what to say really it's just been a really chill week.
I talked to kaela 3 days in a row it was epic :)
I'm looking forward to the end of next week when she is at her dads for a few days, and california is coming quick.

Idk right now I just have this overwhelming feeling. There are so many things I still want to do and even though its only the beginning of july I feel like summer is almost over.

I dont know if I will be able to see anna or kaela its just rediculous being this close to both of them right now and not being able to.

idk what to say really.

Ohh I know.
So last night I stayed at my moms and I was up all night watching movies by myself because I cant sleep in strange places really, I'm always so wide awake, and even though I used to call that place home it doesnt feel like home to me anymore, and I'm not really sure home feels like home. I just dont know.
but I watched this movie "the holiday" and it was better then I expected the intro is really what got me hooked more then the sappy love stuff

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms."

I love writers.