RIP everyone.

Here’s to the nights we felt alive,
Here’s to the tears we knew we’d cry,
Here’s to goodbye, tomorrows gonna come to soon.

There is nothing to make you feel alive like a funeral. There is nothing that makes you not want to waste a second of your life waiting, or doing mundane things like death. Death is going to happen to all of us and when it happens to someone close to us, someone that we cared a lot about, it really hits home at how valuable life really is, but I don’t think anyone is really ever taken too soon. I believe no matter how anyone goes they have fulfilled their fate here in the world. I think everyone lately feels like LIVING and not wasting a second, I really do think everyone is feeling this way with all of the deaths. I know from personal experience that the way death moves and onlooker is totally different from the way it impacts the bystanders. Being an onlooker your heart goes out to the bystanders because you probably can relate, but being in the shoes of a bystander is though, you think so many things about how it’s not fair. The concept of how someone can be alive one day laughing with you, and dead the next doesn’t make any since. Nothing makes any since.
I know when I was in that kind of situation, it just made me just want to close up and not let anyone in because loving someone and losing them hurt so much, but I was lucky enough to have a friend that didn’t let that happen. She unknowingly showed me that I needed to open up more and faster because the time, days, hours, second, hugs we have with people are numbered and everyone you get is one you will never have again.
I have been though a lot of shit in my life and a lot of people would sit in my shoes, and say it’s not fair, but in every obstacle there is an opportunity to be gained. Everyone that I have ever loved or been attached to has left me, and it’s hard for a person not to take that personally and not be bitter about it, and sometimes I can be, but when it comes down to it we are all left by everyone in the end.
My life is why I am they way that I am in every way, and I wouldn’t change a second of it trade not a one of my tears for a smile. I really do genuinely believe in fate, and that means that I have to believe that, that person has fulfilled their purpose for being in my life and is needed in someone else’s, and I can be stingy but it wouldn’t change anything. I believe that everyone we cross paths with is there to teach us something. I look at everything in that way. Living in today’s society it is so easy to be angry and hate, be mean, and judgmental of others because we don’t like or understand why they are the way they are, and I get. I understand that I don’t know where they are coming from or what they may have to offer me but even if they end up stabbing me in the back I will have still gained from that experience. Ignorance has to be intolerable and people need to be open-minded. Everything is give and take. We have to see how beautiful everything is. We are all only flawless in our mistakes after all and we are only human after all. Life is isn’t ever not fair, so to be the people who go out and live, start loving..and start with yourself once you know who you are everything else will become so clear.
I am alive and I am LIVING.


We say Rest in peace.
When we need to live in peace.